Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Mehedi - Henna

Ei Prothom Ami Paye mehedi Dilam, Tau amar chotto api amake shahojjo korlo bole...Khubi talented...Sheidin onek bristi hochilo...r mehedi deyar por bristite hete ashi boler payer dosha kharap..LOL

Tobe Mehedi bhaloi dite pare...

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Sunday, May 27, 2007

Ondhokar Kalo Raat

May 27th, 2007

Baba kaje jachilo khub tarahura kore thik shondha 7ta baje May 25th, 2007. Din chilo shukrobar amar bondho tar porer din thekei. Baba hotath ghamachilo. Hath pa kapte shuru kore. Kichute amader dhekachenna uni. Baba rog protirodh khomota beshi. Uni sohoje kauke kichu bollenna. Tai ami unar pichu lege thaki shob shomoi. Ektu kharap lagte dheklei ami bar bar jiggesh korte thaki. Ekdom charina. Sheidino kichu bolchilona. Ami hotath dheklam baba kemon jeno korche.

Ami babake bollam “abbu sick call kore den kaje jete hobe”
baba: Keno?
Ami: karon apnar shorir bhalona…apni sick call na korle ami kore diboe ekhoni. Kaje jete hobena apnar. Apnake ekhon hospitale niye jabo.

baba hospital-er bed ke khubi bhoi pai. Ekbar checkup korte jeye babake totokhonat bhorti kore fele erpor jante parlam babake Cardiac CATH korbe...tokhon ei shobodo tar mane jantam na. porobortite jante parlam er mane ki. Ora babar shorire Stent lagabe. Emon ekta boshtu ja babar arteries-e probesh korbe block na houar jonno. Tokhon thekei babar shorire ache 4 ta stents ache.

amader shorire ekta kichu aghat korle ba probesh korle chitkar kore uthi. Otocho babar moto jara heart patients tader shorire ei dhoroner bostu niye beche thakte hoche.

Baba ke ami kaje jete dilam na. kono rokome na. ami babake niye chole gelam pressure mapar jonno.. bashai machine ache kintu ami bhorosha korte parchilam na. tarpor dekhi pressure normal. Bashai chole ashi baba shuye thake. Kromosho baba kapte thake ami r shomoi baralam na. rat hote na hotei amra rouna di hospitale. Sathe chilo amma, choto bhaia r ami. Amar boro bhaia chilo deshe bhabi ke ante giyechilo karon bhabir tokhon matro visa hoi. Ami shompurno eka pore jai.

Hospitale niye jauar por por babake bhorti koriye dei. Ora bole r ektu late korle tomar babake bachate partam na. amader joldi operation korte hobe. Erporei babar operation date fele May 27th 2007. Amar jiboner kalboshakhir raat chilo May 27th. Bhaiake phone kore boli shob ghotona bhaia totokhonath ticket early kore nei shob kichu chere chole ashe bhabi ke niye floridai. Ora ashar porer din abbar operation hoi. Operation er age amader ke jiggesh kore ke guardian. Abba amake dekhiye dei. Ami nijeke control rakhte parina karon amar sign korte hobe paper. Emon sign jeta babar operation er mode kichu hole jeno blame na kori. Ami sign korchilam r mone hochilo ami jento kobore dhukhe porchilam. Ei amake Allah kon porikkhai fello. Operation theater niye jai…chardik stobdho hoye jai. Baba jabar shomoi shobar kach theke khoma cheye nei. Unar mone hochilo ei sesh r ashbona fire. Amra ador kore dei. Amar dike takate thake abba. Ektu porei dhukhe pore.

Amar jononi babake bhetore niye jauar aag porjonto shokto chilo jei matro r dheka gelo na babake tokhon lute pore matite.

Operation theater theke babake ber kore orai 6 ghonta por. tokhon ami chitkar diye uthi. Ekta almunium foil er mode babake pura cover kore rakhe. Shudhu mukh khana dheka jache. Babar shorir fule thake. Babake moteo chena jaina. Ami kichutei shanto hote parchilam na. eiki amar baba. Aha koto koshto peyechilo amar baba operation er shomoi. Nischoi ora babake medicine diye obosh kore fele. Korari to kotha. Kemon korchilo tokhon amar baba? Kibhabe kanna korchilo? Nischoi unar ma-ke bar bar mone porchilo? Uni nischoi mone korechilo ei bujhi amar sesh din.

babar heart surgery houar por amra onek shotorko hoye jai. ammu prottek kichu onek shotorko kore ranna kore. etoi shotorko je control korte korte sesh. ammu jokhon bhat ranna kore shiddo kore shob pani fele dei. mangsho ranna korle shiddo kore pani fele dei. eishob dhora porche. Cholestrol, Diabetics....faltu. jindegite deshe thakte shunini eishob.

Amar baba heart surgery por besh bhalo hoye uthe. Ek shoptahr mode mone hoi jeno unar kichu hoini. Ekhaner doc bollo abbur regular insulin nite hobe. Kintu onek high dose. Ami proshno korle ora make uttor dei je he obosshoi nite hobe tomar babar diabetics rogi so doctor jeta bolche nite hobe. Prai baba insulin neyar por shokal 3 tai uthe jeto ghumote partona karon unar sugar low hoye jeto. R unake niye doradorite portam. Ammu sara rat jege thakto pashe. Amra kaj na kore parchilam na. protidin kaj korte hochilo. Babar pashe thakte parchilamna. Ei kon duniyate chole elam. Ami onek din off nile amake bole je continue off nile kaj chere dite. Erpor koshto kore kaje jetam buke pathor bedhe.

R ek kalo raat eshe pore amader majhe, shokale ammu dhum dhum doroja bari dei. Mina mina kore chitkar kore. Tor abba shudu eituku shuni erpor ami doroja khule dekhi amar babar matha jhule ache. Shudu nissash ami chitkar kore uthi. Doraye kitchen room-e jeye ami sugar niye ashi ek mutho. Erpori unar mukhe dhukiye di….hathe phone niye 911 call di. Ora amake hajar hajar proshno korte thake. Edike ami babake mukhe sugar ditei achi r amar chitkar, kannar majhe 911 er operator kichu shunte pachilona. Amake bar bar bolchilo come down come down. What’s happening? What he is doing now? Eishob ajaira proshno korchilo. Ami oke chitkar diye dhomok diye uttor dichilam. Abbu ektu hoshe ashe erpor bole ami bhalo achi…bolte bolte abar nuye pore. Ami shonge shonge abar chitkar diye uthi. Amar ammur low pressure kake shamlabo ami. Ammu abbur porishtitite dekhe matha ghurai. Edike bhaia ke chitkar kori ami….bhaia utte pore bhabi shoho. Tokhon shokal 6 ta. Ami phone thakte thakte babake shorbot baniye khawai. Ammuke shamlai bhaia, bhabi. Erpor abbu hoshe ashe abaro. Prain 15-20 min pore ashe emergency gari. Ora tarahura kore abbur shob check kore. Abbu kono rokome hospitale jete chaina abaro. Abbu amar dike cheye thake choto bachar moto. Cheye bole mina ami hospitale jabona. Amar buk fete jai. Ami boli shanto hou baba. Please shanto hou. Ora tomar bhalor jonno korbe. Please baba. Ammu ke edike bhaiara thik kore mathai tel diye. Ektu pore ora bollo babake hospitale emergency te niye jete hobe. Sugar low hoye jauar karone brain beghat ghotte pare. Ami stupid doctor er prescription dhekalam je ora amar babake fere felte chaiche. Ami bar bar jiggesh korchi eto beshi insulin nite hobe naki? Bar bar doctor ke phone korchi surgeon ke phone korchi. Amar babar eto beshi insulin nite hobena. Ora bole je nah, nite hobe karon oke surgery kora hoiche. They have killed my dad. Eita bole chitkar diye uthi.

Babake hospitale niye jai. Brain scan kore bollo baba stroke koreche mild stroke. R ki ache beche thakar jonno. R ki korbo ami. Ami dishehara hoye pori. Ami surgeon doctor shobai ke khuji. Tomra amar babake mere felcho tomader kauke ami charbona kauke na.

Babar shob chek kore bashai pathiye dei. Babar operation pore ekdom nomal hoye giyechilo. Stroke korar por baba r thik thakena. Babar kotha bondho hoye jai. Kono communicate korena. Kono kotha bolena. Khida lagle bolena. Shudu matro takiye thake. Namaj pore, shomoi kore tv dheke bas r kichu korena. Karo sathe kotha bolena. Amra jiggesh korle bolle. Noile chup. Jiggesh korleo onekhon pore uttor dei. Jodi unar iche hoito. Ki hoiche amar babar? Keno emon hoye gelo? Ei proshner uttor khujte thaki…doctor, surgeon, specialist, neurologist, khujte khujte jante pari abba brain stroke korche kintu ekdom shammno tate babar kono oshubidhe hoini. Kintu baba marattok bhabe depressed. babake psychologist ke dekhate bollo…ekhon wait korte achi psychologist ki bolbe shetar ashai…

Amar sojjo hoina babar ei porishtiti dekhe. Koto active chilo. Ektu boshe thaka pochondo kortona. Tuk tak hajaro kaj korto. Emon kichu janena je baki nei. Je kono kichur proti unar agroho thakto korrar. Jetai hok na keno. Kothin proshromi chilen baba. Amar kemonta lage buk hahakar kore chitkar diye uthe jotobar babake dekhi chupchap. Kono shobdo nei. Amra manush kibhabe porishthitr shikar hoye pori. Baba ei oboshtai pashe ache eitai amader sahosh dei kaj korar pothe cholar. Age je abbu boka jhoka korto ekhon bujte parchi keno korto. Kothai achena daat thakte amra daater jotno ni na. thik temoni mone hoche idanin amar.

Baba roge akranto ektar por por ekta eshe shorire oboshtan korche. Manusher joto boyosh bare totoi jeno shorir klanto hoye jai bibinno bhabe…baba beche ache amader majhe, high blood pressure, diabetics, heart problem, stroke, ebon depressed niye. Protidin hajaro drugs nei. Sojjo hoina dhekle. Tobuo shanty paai…beche to achen amader majhe.

Saturday, May 05, 2007

Kacha Boroi..

USA, Floridai Amma 2 bochor age boroi gach ropon korechilo...ekdom Bichi theke. Desh theke niye eshechilo. 2 Bochor por Onek boroi dhorlo ebon 3 ta gach soho boroi peye mone hochilo jeno jug jug dhore boroi khaini...onek onek boroi dhorechilo...yum!