Bhoyonkor Shokal - 9/11 - 9:11

hotath kore chokhe pore 9/11 aaj ebon shomoi 9:11 kemon jeno buk ta dhuk kore uthlo. noi r egaro ek sathe dekhlei shob ulta palta hoye jai.

Prottek class-e students teacher doradori korche. bollo tv charo. amader class tv chilona...kichukhon por tv jogar korlo. r chartei dekhte pelam building dhoshe porche. manush doradori korche...roktatto, agun, charpashe siren er shobdo, helper ra manushder niye niye ashche. ami purapuri bujhar chesta korchilam ki hoiche. amar shorir sihoron diye uthe...uff bujte chai kemne hoiche...

teacher shobaike bujhalo ki hoche...8:46 AM ekta plane world trade center dhongsho korlo...r shei plane chilo hijacker ra. ami proshno korlam world trade center kothai? bollo new york. shei prothom jante parlam world trade shommondhe. kichukhoner bebodhane abar shunlam r ekta hit korlo. yeah Allah ki hoche. prithibi ki dhongsher pothe chole elo naki?

ami high schoole, english class-e chilam. salwar kamiz pore jetam schoole. amar teacher, friends, ebon onnanno stuffs amake khub pochondo korto ebon shomman korto. 2001 shale floridai amar boyosh 2 bochor 9 mash. notun school, manush, poribesh, jibon...

sheidin amader chuti diye dilo. bashai jauar somoi bus-e radio te shunchilam, shob. erpor bashai jeye abar tv te. khobore bolchilo kara korlo...kibhabe...tarpor ekta por ekta khobor shunte pai...khub bhoi shuru hoi.

school bondho chilo koyekdin er jonno. jeidin khule ami school bus-e uttei amar pashe jei meye protidin boshto oh uthe chole jai. erpor theke shuru hoi ektar por ekta boishommo. school giyechilam onno diner moto kore. amar pashe keu boshchilona, kotha bolchilona, kemon wierd bhabe dekchilo. kichudin por keu keu amake ladener meye bolchilo...lol ami kono uttor deini...age jara amar sathe boshto ora avoid korlo amake. oderke naki oder ma baba mana koreche amader skin color dheke na boshte kono muslim er sathe kotha na bolte dure thakte. jai hok abar onek clasmate chilo bhishon bhinno.

ekdin schoole lunch time-e (9/11 ek mash por) cafeteria te jai, ermodde ami hete hall pass korchilam, lunch time hall chilo ekdom khali, kichu chele ashchilo cafeteriar odik theke, ekta meye (ami thik sure na kon deshi) hijab pora chilo eki poth diye ashchilo cafeteria theke lunch niye. tokhon chelegulo pichon theke eshe meyetike bole so "r you bin laden's daughter" meyeti uttore bole "yes do you have a problem with that??" tothkhonath or hather gorom gorom lunch er plate ti meyetir mukher dike chure mere paliye jai shob chele. meyetir chehera ta jholshano hoye pore khonikher modde...ami doraye jete meyeti kator hoye pore jai floor-e. security gurd eshe oke hospitale niye giyechilo...or mukhti chiro jiboner jonno bikrito hoye gelo. cheletike suspend kore deya hoi. meyetir ki holo r janina kichu...erpor theke onek rules add kore shob school-e. no personal attack, no bullying, no harrasing, if someone harassing you call 911. kintu kar kotha ke shune. koreche attonkobadira r bhugtechi amra.

amar choto bhai tokhon elementry porto, oke protidin or classmates ra nana bhabe bother korto. amar ma burkah pore ekdin or schoole jai school functions er karone tokhon kichu kichu chele kheyal kore to puro school bole berachilo "hey look laden's son" ebon hashto. protidin lokkhi bhai, amar kache eshe bolto apu ami oderke mere felbo. ora r ekta kotha bolle oderke thappor lagabo...r o koto ki. ami oke bujhatam. teen-der joto bujhai bujhena boyosher dosh. ami principle ke jeye bolle, kichu kichu cheleke warn deya hoi, warn deyate upodrob r o bere jai. ami school theke oke move korte o parlam na ekhaner rules er karone. harassing hot line call dilam oderke janalam. ora reaction nei. onek suspend kora hoi kichudiner jonno. erpor abar shuru hoi upodrob.

2004 shale giyechilam new york. world trade center, pochai subway diye. kichu nei. charpashe kalo kalo porda diye cover kora shob. amar gaye kata diye uthe. tokhono dekhechilam jolonto shob building, pora subway, r world trade center pura ghira deya lohar bera diye. tarupor chilo aponjonder chobi, jader hariyeche ei jaigai. hajaro innocent mara gelo. ki millo eishob kore? borong shobar jibon baje kore dilo. manusher majhe manusher bhedabhed kore dilo. atonke din katate hoi. plane uthe shob jaigai check kori oi dhoroner manush mathai kichu porano ache kina. dekhlei shihoron diye uthe. jani shobai ek na. tarporo, mrittur bhoi kar nei? ajkal kono trasportation secured mone hoina. plane chara je ek desh theke onno desh bhoromon korai koshto. bisesh kore bangladesh. deshe jete onek plan change korte hoi. r atonke thaki. ektar por ekta crime korei jache era. nijeder r o khati musolman bole. osojjo! manushke khun kore kemne manush shantir nidrai thakte pare?

koto kichu porlam koto kichu janlam 9/11 shommondhe. documentry film korlo. ke ebong kara shonjugto puro plantar pichone. obak lage amar. ke shottto bolche ke mittha bolche? puzzled!!

Shoinik - Tumi Amar Ghum

tumi amar ghum tobu tomay shopno dekhi na

tumi amar shukh tobu tomay niye ghor badhi na
tumi amar khola akash
kokhono surjo dekhi na
tumi amar din theke rat
ami j samay jani na

ami bristi chai obiroto megh
tobuo somudro chubo na
morur akase rod hobo chaya hobo na
tumi amar khola akash kokhono surjo dekhi na
tumi amar din theke rat
ami j samay jani na

tumi amar ghum tobu tomay shopno dekhi na
tumi amar shukh tobu tomay niye ghor badhi na
tumi amar khola akash
kokhono surjo dekhi na
tumi amar din theke rat
ami j samay jani na

valobasa joler moto du hat jeno vore na
prio mukh tarar moto du choke gona jay na
tumi amar khola akash
kokhono surjo dekhi na
tumi amar din theke rat
ami j samay jani na

tumi amar ghum tobu tomay shopno dekhi na
tumi amar shukh tobu tomay niye ghor badhi na
tumi amar khola akash
kokhono surjo dekhi na
tumi amar din theke rat
ami j samay jani na

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kichu kichu gaan moner shob kothai bole jai...amar shob kichu oh tarporo take kache tante chaina...bhishon kharap lage chinta korte...kintu tate jodi tar bhalo hoi, tate jodi oh bhalo thake tahole keno ami shopno bunbo? keno ami oke niye asha badhbo?? keuki jane gantir shurokar ebon likheche ke?

tori jonno shorirer bhare ami noto

tori jonno shorirer bhare ami noto
tori jonno golpo bunechi koto koto
tori jonno gaan toke ghire ei khela
tokei dichi amar shokal chelebela

toke deboi ami amar tiner chal bari
toke debo dekh amar pahar sari sari
toke diye debo school pothe bake pawa
froktite ure samad damad kon hawa
tori jonno gaan toke ghire ei khela
tokei dichi amar shokal chelebela

tori jonno shorirer bhare ami noto

tok nun tok tetul achar ache rakha
tori jonno amar boyame tele makha
tokei dichi jol chop chop bheja juto
schoole na jabar amar purono shei chuto
amar golpo boyer molat pata khule
tori jonno shobdo bondho rakhi tule

toke bhagddi amar boro hobar betha
toke bole dibo amar gopon joto kotha
eishob ami toke debo toke debo
tor chelebela tor kach theke cheye nibo

eishob ami tokei debo toke debo
tor chelebela tor kach theke cheye nibo

tori jonno shorirer bhare ami noto
tori jonno golpo bunechi koto koto
tori jonno gaan toke ghire ei khela
tokei dichi amar shokal chelebela

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gaanti bhishon bhalo lage, bhalo lage gaantir shobdo gulo, shur...ei dhoroner koto gaan bhalo lage. ei bhalo laga ek porjaye hariye jai. hariye jaai r o onek bhalo laga gaaner majhe. gaanti koto kotha bole gelo. koto shobdo diye tulona korlo amader chelebela. kibhabe eita eker por ek generation par hoi. amra par koriye di jeno amader chelebela here na jai. oneke chelebela ke bhule thaktei pochondo kore. shobar chelebela to r bhalo hoina anonder hoina...oneke chaia chelebela tar shontaner ta shobcheye best hobe karon or ta temon chilona. amara bhule jete chai amra koshte boro hoyechilam. shei koshto muche dite chai porer generation er. tate je kotota khoti korchi sheta realize korina. koshto kora na shikale kemon hobe porer generation? koshto theke dure rakhle kemne manusher koshto bujbe?

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Ki Lojjakor Bepar!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ag2M54bnyfs

koto boro lojjakor bepar. khubi nirlojjo jei cheleta ei kaj koreche. ektu ki tar mathai ashlona jar name korche shei ekjon artist. ekjon artist obosshoi manush. ebon protita manusher bhalo mondo ache. ekhon "Akhi Alamgir" er kono kichu bhalo na lage tahole sheta kharap bhabe prokash korar ki kono mane ache? ki karone cheleta ei kaj korlo?? manusher shobbota ki din din bilupto hoche?? manush ki ekhon geanhin hoye porche? ekjon korche nam porche puro jatir upor....jokhoni kotha ta bollo ei porishitti uposhtapika ki dhoroner uttor dite pare? akhi alamgir na heshe ki korbe? ki bolbe oi bodmaish ke? chi chi!!! Live show ta kora hoyeche ekta artist er sathe tar fan der connection better korar jonno. dorshokra ki dhoroner excpectation korche singer theke. r shetar ei uttor? koto boro lojjar bepar. keno koreche ei dhoroner kaj??? ki lab holo tar?

ei kaj ta jodi cheletar ma, bon, bou, ba kono friends ke kora hoto or ki dhoroner reaction hoto? kothar dhoron shune mone hoche he just don't care anything at all? at least nijer family?? or you don't have one?? if you reading my blog do one thing please reply why did you do this??? how is it fun to curse a woman. first look at her she is a woman on top that she is an artist. you have no right to curse an artist like this. you don't know what you have done...you never know that could be your family member in that sit or friends or someone....what if someone did the samething that you have done, just to have fun? shame!!!

Happy Birthday "Mother Teresa"

"Mother Teresa, whose original name was Agnes Gonxha Bojaxhiu, was born on August 26, 1910 in what is now Skopje, Macedonia. She always wrote her birthday as the 27th of August because that was the day of her baptism, which was always more important to her than her birth. For her work with the poor around the world she received the 1979 Peace Prize."

Her quotes, books has been inspiring me and will always. some of my favorite quotes of Mother Teresa.

"Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies."

"Do not wait for leaders; do it alone, person to person."

"Even the rich are hungry for love, for being cared for, for being wanted, for having someone to call their own."

"Everytime you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing."

"Good works are links that form a chain of love."

"If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other."

"If we want a love message to be heard, it has got to be sent out. To keep a lamp burning, we have to keep putting oil in it."

"If you can't feed a hundred people, then feed just one."

"If you judge people, you have no time to love them."

"Spread love everywhere you go. Let no one ever come to you without leaving happier."

"There must be a reason why some people can afford to live well. They must have worked for it. I only feel angry when I see waste. When I see people throwing away things that we could use."

"We ourselves feel that what we are doing is just a drop in the ocean. But the ocean would be less because of that missing drop."

"We think sometimes that poverty is only being hungry, naked and homeless. The poverty of being unwanted, unloved and uncared for is the greatest poverty. We must start in our own homes to remedy this kind of poverty."

"I think I'm more difficult than critical."

"I do not pray for success, I ask for faithfulness."

"Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truly endless"

"Let us not be satisfied with just giving money. Money is not enough, money can be got, but they need your hearts to love them. So, spread your love everywhere you go."

"Everybody today seems to be in such a terrible rush, anxious for
greater developments and greater riches and so on, so that children
have very little time for their parents. Parents have very little time for
each other, and in the home begins the disruption of peace of the world."

"Peace begins with a smile. "

"We shall never know all the good that a simple smile can do. "

"Let us touch the dying, the poor, the lonely and the unwanted according
to the graces we have received and let us not be ashamed or slow to
do the humble work. "

"It is easy to love the people far away. It is not always easy to
love those close to us. It is easier to give a cup of rice to relieve
hunger than to relieve the loneliness and pain of someone unloved
in our own home. Bring love into your home for this is where our
love for each other must start."

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Do It Anyway

"If we have no peace,
it is because we have forgotten
that we belong to each other."

-- Mother Teresa
[Agnes Gonxha Beiaxhiu] (1910-1997) Humanitarian,
Nobel Peace Prize 1979


Do It Anyway
Sign In Mother Teresa's Office

People are unreasonable,
illogical, and self-centered,VE THEM ANYWAY

If you do good, people will
accuse you of selfish,
ulterior motives,

DO GOOD ANYWAY

If you are successful, you win
false friends and true enemies,

SUCCEED ANYWAY

The good you do will
be forgotten tomorrow,

DO GOOD ANYWAY

Honesty and frankness
make you vulnerable,

BE HONEST AND FRANK ANYWAY

What you spent years building
may be destroyed overnight,

BUILD ANYWAY

People really need help but
may attack you if you help them,

HELP PEOPLE ANYWAY

Give the world the best you
have and you'll get kicked
in the teeth,

GIVE THE WORLD THE BEST YOU'VE GOT ANYWAY.

From a sign on the wall
of Shishu Bhavan,
the Children's home in Calcutta

Human rights are not a privilege conferred by government. They are every human being's entitlement by virtue of his humanity. The right to life does not depend, and must not be contingent, on the pleasure of anyone else, not even a parent or sovereign. ... You must weep that your own government, at present, seems blind to this truth."

-- Mother Teresa
[Agnes Gonxha Beiaxhiu] (1910-1997)
Humanitarian, Nobel Peace Prize 1979

"There must be a reason why some people can afford to live well. They must have worked for it. I only feel angry when I see waste. When I see people throwing away things we could use."

Mother Teresa (1910-1997), A Gift for God, 1975.

"Do not wait for leaders; do it alone, person to person."

—Mother Teresa

if any one didn't read this book of her....this is the time...

Books By Mother Teresa

* A Simple Path - Author: Mother Teresa, Lucinda Vardey (Compiler)

Mother Teresa has quietly but effectively devoted her life to the world's disadvantaged, spreading her message of hope from the slums of India to AIDS clinics in the United States. In this extraordinary and stimulating book, Mother Teresa shows readers how to attain a strong clarity of purpose that will have a positive effect on the world around them.


* The Joy in Loving: A Guide to Daily Living - Author: Mother Teresa, Jaya Chaliha (Compiler), Edward Le Joly (Compiler)

A treasury of meditations, prayers, and reflections from Mother Teresa, one for each day of the year.


* My Life for the Poor: Mother Teresa of Calcutta - Author: Mother Teresa

In this collection of formal and informal interviews Mother Teresa tells the story of her life.

Tomul borshone Mittir...

“ek bodhrolok hotath dorojar shamne eshe thamlo. Bhitore probesh kore jiggesh korlo mr. mittir konjon? Emoni oboshta ami uttor dilam, amar hater dane chilo, ini Mr. Mittir. Uni nij theke nijer porichoi diye janalen ami Ronjon…” thik tokhoni achomka domka hawa r jhumbrishti shuru hoi. Khub mon kharap mon kharaphoye gelo. Karon ei golpota ami odhir agrohe porte boshechilam r ei kina brishti ashar shomoi? ektu ishara porjonto korlona akash, dhum kore eshe amar boiti vhijiye dilo.Amar r iche korchilo na boshar jaiga theke utte. Brishtir nach dekhte iche korchilo panite.

RiverWalk Park

Jaigata chomotkar, amar kajer pichone ekta park naam ta holo “Old Fort Lauderdale Village and Park or RiverWalk”, downtown. Ei downtown ta onno sohorer moton noi, ektu bhinno, bornona na dilei noi, bishal nodir charpashe royeche prochur gach r seabeach er moto pathor, nodi ta jog hoyeche sagore tai nodir upor chole onek rokomer boat, nouka, chotokhato koto rokomer hathe toiri kora panir janbahon. Kichukhon por por ek ek boat par hoi hoitoba couple, single, tourist boat othoba commercial. Nodir majkhaner royeche ekta train jauar track and brigde, pashapashi krishnochura phool chara royeche bhinno dhoroner phooler gach. Chauni diye gora restaurant, café, royeche purono museum, charpashe shobuj r shobuj.

RiverWalk Park

Park ta shommondhe history bole, Unnisho bish shale Seminole Indian prothomei “Fort Lauderdale” city tee eshe obosthan kore. Thik tokhon jemonti chilo sheibhabe ei old city take jibito rakhar prochesta chalache bote. Old hok othoba new amar jonno to ei hoche “ShantiNiketon”. Eto besto sohore ektu theme thakar sthan. Downtown sadharonoto onek besto thake. Kintu park-ti gele, mone hoi jeno sohor theke onek dure achi. Pakhir kolahol, batasher shobdo, mon matano poribesh, ektu nirobota, ektu nishtobdota. Ei dhoroner chimcham poribesh thakhe, shokal theke dupur porjonto. iche kore sarabela boshe thaki shondha porjonto. Karon shondhar pore ei chimacham poribesh hoye uthe jonoshomudro. Jehetu saradin boshe thakte parina tai amar bhojoner jonno chole jai majhe majhe ei park-e.

RiverWalk Park

Brishti shuru houar por, minute khanek chinta kortei chokhe pore ekta gacher jhop. Sekhane ami amar purse, r boi ta dhukiye diye gacher pata diye ghure dilam. Erpor iche moto kajer kapore bhijlam. Amar mathai chilona ami kaje achi bhijle ami kapor pabona change korar jonno. Usually amar garite kapor rakhi bola jaina kokhon kothai ki iche kore. Tomul borshon hochilo kichukhoner jonno brishti theme jai kintu biddut chomkano ta roye jai. Ami jotota brishti pochondo kori totota biddut chomkano ke bhoi kori. Age ei bhoi chilona amar. Joto boyosh barche biddut chomaknor proti bhoi jeno berei cholche. Keno? Shei onno din bolbo.

Kichu Brishtir chobi tulechilam Cell phone diye....

Ami boshe porlam boi niye abar bheja kapore. Pora shuru kortei abar brishti eibar boi ke bachanor jonno dour diye bhetore ekta restaurant dhukhe pori. Shei restaurant ta faka chilo ebon bondho. Shomboboto eita ekta hukka jaiga. Karon onek hukka table ache r royeche Arabian/Egyptian der shokin bishal akarer chair r sofa. Ami boshe porllam ektate. Brishti barte thake, ami shuye pori ekta chaire r kichukhon brishti dekhi, por por train asha shuru kore, train er shobdo brishtir shobdo duto mishe mone hochilo ekta music hoche kono manush chilona shobai brishtir jalai bhetore paliyeche. Tai besh lagchilo. Feluda sesh kore kaje fire jai. Tobe dosh minute er moddhe abar ber hoye ashte hoi karon bheja kapore AC te boshe kaj korte morei jachilam thandai.

Kichu Brishtir chobi tulechilam Cell phone diye....

শুভ বন্ধু দিবস!!!

আমার সব বন্ধুদের অনেক অনেক শুভেচ্ছা বন্ধু দিবসের। এই বছরের বন্ধু দিবস আমার ভাল গেলনা। আমরা এখন সবাই ব্যস্ত নিজ নিজ কর্ম নিয়ে। কারো সময় হয়ে উঠেনি এক সাথে হওয়ার জন্য। মনটাও ভাল ছিলনা। সারাদিন বাসায় বসে কেটে গেল। আবারো আমার বন্ধুদের অনেক অনেক শুভেচ্ছা। আমার বন্ধুরা তোমরা সবাই ভাল থেকো।

Mormantic Mrittu

khubi dhukkho ebon koshter sathe ajker likhate onek kichu prokash korte hoche amar. emon ek poribeshe boshobash korchi jekhane kono security nai life er. nijer dokane eshe dhakati hamla tarupor guli kore chole jai. ei bhabe hajaro bangali ekhane mara geche. keu moreche mathai guli kheye, keu heart, ba keu onno jaigai. on the spot onekjon pran diyechen. eigulo jeno stop korar kono poddoti nei. eki bochore shunte pai ek ekjon mara geche guli kheye dokane tau nijer othobo kormochari.

kichu din age 2006 shale ekta chele mara giyechilo. khubi olpo boyoshi. matro desh theke esechilo 6 mash er mathai. baba mayer ek matro shontan. eshei same grocery store kaj krote dhukhe. tau bangalir grocery store. or sathe chilo owner. owner guli kore rubbery korte eshe, owner pichone chilo cheleta owner buke diye guli dhukhe cheletar buke dhukhe jai. on the spot-e cheleta mara jai kintu owner beche jai. ki mormantic mrittu.

2006 shale r o ekjon bhodrolok emoni gulir shikar hoi. unar shorire bullet dhukhe chinno bichinno kore dei. hospitale onek din juddho korte thake. paralyze hoye pore.

Goto kal....

Store clerk shot, killed in robbery attempt

POMPANO BEACH, Fla. (AP) 08 -- A convenience store clerk is dead after being shot during a robbery attempt in coastal Florida and shooting back at his assailants.

The Broward County Sheriff's Office says it began around 10 a.m. Wednesday when two gunmen wearing masks entered the store in Pompano Beach and demanded cash from the clerk, 53-year-old Borhan Dawla. A struggle ensued and Dawla was shot. But authorities say Dawla grabbed a gun, staggered outside and fired several shots at the men as they ran away. Investigators don't believe any of his shots hit them. Dawla collapsed in front of the store and later died at a hospital. Deputies later found and arrested 21-year-old Lorenzo Sanchez and 24-year-old Lavoris Johnson in the incident.
(credit 7seven news)

ki dhoroner atonke americar moto ekta deshe amra jibon japon korchi.

goto christmas-e 07 amar cousin dokan bondho korar jonno ready hochilo tokhoni tinjon dhukhe cousin ke ghire fele. cousin hath tule dei upore...cousin ke matite shuaye fele erpor pither pa diye dhore rakhe. cousin kichu bolena chup thake. duto pa pither upor tule dei. erpor shob kichu palai jai...abar eshe dekchilo amar cousin kono cops ke phone kore dichilo naki...jokhon dhekche dichilo r tokhoni shoot korar jonno prepare hochilo totokhonat pichon theke ekjon ok lathi diye fele dei. jini lathi diyechen uni cousin dokan er ekjon bum. jini chobbish ghonta cousin er dokaner pashei pore thake. ebon cousin take dekha shona kore. ajke bum ta na bachale cousin morei jeto.

amar bhaiar jokhon nijosso dokan chilo 2008 shale jan, ei dhoroner shomossa korchilo. jokhon rate dokan bedhe chole ashto...dokaner charpash kete wire kete dhukhe porchilo r shob niye palaichilo. video te tader ke dekhe fele bhaiara chine jai. r ekdin ora ashe eki shong-e kintu shamnashamni bhaia chine feltei kichu bolena. chup kore thake...ora ekdike firtei bhaia call kore dei cops ke...cops call dile ora bujte pare chole jai bhaiar koti korte parena karon bullet proof chilo bolle allah bachaiche

ami tokhon college pori 2004..ami college theke bashai chole eshe homework korchilam. r tokhon amar shunte pelam aunty subway te kaj korche ebon unake ajke subway bondho korte hobe rat 12 baje. amake aunty phone kore req korlo je ami jeno jai unake pick korar jonno karon rate bus paua jai na. to ami bollam thik ache ami laptop niye jai okhane apni closin korte korte ami kaj kore nibo. ami gelam parking kore bhitore dhukhi. tokhon rat 11:30pm. ami laptop on kore kaj korte thaki aunty clean korte thake r kichukhon por dokan bondho kore dibe. kono customer chilona. hotath kore duto chele ashe. sandwich nilo chole gelo. dujoner gaye sada ebon kalo shirt porano chilo. kichukhon por abad mask pore dhukhe pore hathe gun niye. dhukhe bole je don't move. amar jibone ei prothom amar chokher shamne ekjon gun niye dariye ache. aunty bolchilo chitkar kore hey i call cops...drop the gun...ora bhitor jump diye shukhe computer bhenge fele kemne kore jani. okhan theke taka niye nei. ami ha kore hath tule shudu takiye roilam. aunty chitkar kortei thake. ami aunty ke shantona dichilam aunty don't scream english bolchilam. aunty chup korena. ami aunty ke bollam aunty ora shoot kore dibe chitkar korona. ora shob niye chole jai. ora ber hotei amra store bondho kore di. lock kore dujon bhitore boshe manager ke call di. erpor r ki ja normally hoi holo...cops ashlo, report likhlo etc etc. kauke pelona. lol

protidin ei doroner crime bartei ache. jibone ei dhoroner gulir aghate keu mara jabe bina karone eita shunte pabo bole kokhono asha korini. ekhane eshe ja socharochor shunte hoche. bichitro jibon.

Aam, Aamra, Aami Ebong Brishti

কাজে যেখানে আমার ডেস্ক এবং চেয়ার তার পেছনে আছে ছোট্ট একটা জানালা। মাঝে মধ্যে চেষ্টা চলতে থাকে জানালাটা খুলে ফেলার। যেহেতু অফিস এর জানালা, বলা চলে যে এক্কেবারে যব্দ করে লাগানো যেন কেউ খুলতে না পারে। আমার Air condition মোটেও ভালো লাগেনা। দম আটকে আসে। যেমনি জলে লাইট তেমনি কৃত্রিম বাতাস। সেইজন্য অজুহাত দিয়ে বার বার বাইরে চলে যাই মুক্ত বাতাস খাওয়ার জন্য। নইলে স্বস্তির নিঃশ্বাস নিতে পারিনা। কোনদিকে সকাল, দুপুর, সন্ধ্যা পার হয়ে যায় বোঝার কুল নেই, যদি না একটু করে পিছনে ফিরে তাকাই। চারপাশে অনেক গুলো জানালা কিন্তু ব্লাইন্ডস দিয়ে অন্ধকার করে রাখা হয়ছে, বিরক্তিকর।
আজ কাজে আসার সময় মনটা ভীষন খারাপ ছিলো। কোনো কিছুতেই মন দিতে পারছিলাম না। কর্মস্থলে আছি কিন্তু মন পরে ছিল সুদুর কানাডায়। হাস্যকর বটে। কিন্তু কি আর করার আছে আমার। মনটা খারাপ থাকলেও কি না থাকলেও কি? কারো কিছু যায় আসেনা। তাই নিজেকে শান্ত করার চেষ্টা করে যাচ্ছিলাম। ইচ্ছে করছিল উড়াল দিয়ে ওর কানে চিৎকার করে বলি, তোমার সাধ মিটেনা আমাকে বার বার কষ্ট দিয়ে? তবু কেন বার বার একি কাজ কর? এটার কোনো মানে হয়না। শুধু শুধু মন খারাপ করে রাখব কেন? কি কারনে? কার কারনে? ও আমাকে দেখছেনা আমি ও দেখছিনা তাকে। বলতে পারছিনা কার, কেন, কি কারনে মন খারাপ হয়ে আছে। শুধু শুধু ওর উপর মন খারাপ করে না রেখে বরং আমার মন ঠিক করা যাক।

হঠাৎ করে দুপুরের শুরুতেই মেঘ গর্জন শুনতে পেলাম। আমি পিছনে ফিরে জানালার দিকে মুখ করতেই দেখতে পেলাম, মেঘ ভারী মন খারাপ করেছে, সেই জন্য মুখ ভারী করে আছে, আর ইচ্ছে মত চারপাশে অন্ধকার ছড়িয়ে দিচ্ছে। ঠিক আমার মত। আমার সাথে মেঘের কত্য মিল। তবে মেঘ তার অন্ধকার ঘুচাতে বৃষ্টি নামিয়ে এনে দেই কারো মনে আনন্দ তো কারো মনে দুঃখ। আমারটা? :-)

শুরু হয় ঝুমঝুম বৃষ্টি, এবং আমার ভোজনের সময়। আজ ভোজনে তেমন কিছু খাওয়ার পরিকল্পনা যদিও ছিলনা। তারপর ও অনেক কিছু খেয়ে ফেলি। আমি নিত্যদিনের মত আমার থলে, বই, পানি, ছোট্ট একটা তুর্কি স্যান্ডউইচ, আম, আমড়া গোটা, আপেল, ছুরি এবং লবণ নিয়ে বের হয়ে পরলাম ছাদের উদ্দেশ্যে।

প্রতিদিন খাওয়া হয় বিভিন্ন রকমের খাবার আজকে ক্যালসিয়াম এবং প্রোটিনের সংখ্যা বেশি।

বৃষ্টির কারনে ছাদে আর উঠা হলোনা। তবে পারকিং লটে থামের উপর আমার সরঞ্জাম নিয়ে বসে পরলাম। বাতাসে বৃষ্টির ফোঁটা ছুয়ে যাচ্ছিল আমাকে। তুর্কি স্যান্ডউইচ খেয়ে আপেল বের করতে করতে দেখলাম বৃষ্টি আরো বেড়ে গেল। আমি বসে বৃষ্টির আনন্দ দেখছিলাম, একটার পর একটা খাবার মুখে দিচ্ছিলাম। পাশাপাশি দূর আলাপনে মেতে ছিলাম কিছুক্ষণের জন্য কানাডার বাসিন্দার সাথে। সহজেই মন ভালো হয়ে যায় বৃষ্টির কারনে। সেই জন্য সহজ ভাবে কথা বলতে পারছিলাম। কিছুক্ষন পর ফোন রাখতে হয় কানাডার মানুষের। আমি আমার মত করে আমড়া গোটা আর আম ছিলে ছিলে লবণ দিয়ে খেতে থাকি। আর পাশাপাশি বই পড়ি রবি ঠাকুরের মনিহার খানা। হঠাৎ করে...অনেক দূর থেকে কানে ভেসে আসছে এম্বুলেন্সের সাইরেন। এই সাইরেন আমাকে নিস্তব্ধ করে দেয়। আহা বৃষ্টি হলেই এখানে অনেকে এক্সিডেন্ট করে। যতবার বৃষ্টি হয় ততবার মনে হয় এই বুঝি এম্বুলেন্সের সাইরেনের আওয়াজ শুরু হবে। কিছুক্ষন যেতে না যেতেই শুরু হয়ে যায়। মন কেমন যেন করতে থাকে। আর সঙ্গে সঙ্গে আমার ফোন বেজে উঠে। আমি জানি কে করেছে। আমার মা। আম্মু বলে "মা তুই কোথায়? বাইরে অনেক সাইরেন এর আওয়াজ হচ্ছে আমার মনে শান্তি পাচ্ছিলাম না তাই তোরা কে কোথায় আছিস সুস্থ আছিস কিনা ফোন করে দেখছি।" আমি হেসে উত্তর দিলাম মাকে, আমি ভালো আছি, আনন্দে আছি। মা হেসে আল্লাহর হাওলা বলে ফোন রেখে দেয়।

আমি মাঝে মাঝে মনে করতাম মানুষ কিভাবে বৃষ্টিতে এক্সিডেন্ট করে? বৃষ্টি শুরু হলে চলমান গাড়ির স্পিড কমিয়ে দেয়া উচিৎ। আমি আর বলিনা এই কথা কারন, আমিও বৃষ্টির শিকার হয়েছি। সেই দিনটা কখনো ভুলতে পারবনা। বৃষ্টি বার বার স্মরণ করিয়ে দেয় সেই মর্মান্তিক দিনটির প্রতিটা মুহুর্ত।

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